PSA, Construction, and Other Notifications



For those of you who have been wondering where I’ve been the last week, wonder no longer. I’m currently in the process of finding a new place to live and it has been demanding the majority of my time. Furthermore, Always Looking Up is undergoing some major construction at the moment to better the experience for all of us.

I appreciate your patience, understanding, and continued patronage.

Stay tuned for big things.


Maturity and Other Mishaps

as we grow older

we trade our dreams

for idiotic insecurities

and symbols of wealth.


as we grow older

the lake of possibility




to almost nothing


though it’s still there

and very much alive

but the trouble is

we’ve convinced ourselves

it doesn’t exist anymore.


as we grow older

so does the earth

and as it grows older

so do the screams to end this

and walk single file

into oblivion together.


as we grow older

self-righteousness moves in

like the cousin you never knew or

a friend who said he’d be gone by last week.

you aren’t sure exactly when they came

or whence they came

all you know is

they just finished your bag of pretzels.


as we grow older

we are told what to do

what to think

what to eat


all the people to avoid

which is boiled down to


that isn’t your carbon copy.


good luck.


as I grow older

my metabolism hasn’t

it’s still as stubborn

and lazy

and worthless

and defiant

as a 67 year old diabetic since

the day we were paired together

but hey,

it takes two to tango

i suppose.


as I grow older

i fear people

and their capabilities

and lack there of

more and more

day after day

forever and ever



as I grow older

i find the privilege

in one true friend

away from the adjustable light

of technologies glow

and into the transfixed light

of unconditional eternity.


as I grow older

i miss my family

and am reminded

not so slightly

of the privilege

to be affiliated with angels.


as I grow older

my eyes get heavier

with tears

with stories

with sites

with love

with hope.


as I grow older

i grasp that fame

albeit fortune too

are the grandest trickeries

of a civilization face down in the gutter.




Me Against Me

Having a ‘competition oriented’ approach to living can be beneficial in a multitude of ways. It promotes consistent improvement and encourages setting, meeting, and exceeding goals. For most, the word competition involves direct relationships with outside entities like other players, obstacles, or the game itself. It’s not often that we think of this opposition as a test of character, resiliency, and ability to overcome the largest competition we face: ourselves.
Sure, having an observable adversary makes the visualization of your goals easier. When you get smoked off the dribble in basketball, take second place in the spelling bee, or come inches short of taking the finish line, it hurts. Failure of any sort is terrible. No two ways about it. However, it’s an inevitable part of life. We discussed this a few weeks back in regards to understanding that we will spend a large majority of our lives existing in a ‘middle ground’ where there will almost always be people better than and worse than us at something.

The trick here is to not shun the desire to perform better than your peers, but to up the personal expectations you have on your performances. At all stages of life, you are the only judge of how satisfaction and success is defined in your life.

Here are 4 things to focus on to consistently win the fight against yourself:

  1. What’s on your plate: To get better, we must have a strict and dedicated focus on only the tasks at hand within a given day. We must not dwell on the success or downfalls of yesterday nor the promises or let downs tomorrow may bring. Today, this moment, this second is the only thing we have to work with. Utilize it.
  2. Plan & Prioritize: No successful exertion blossoms out of nowhere. It usually involves a lot of regimented planning, reflection, and progression. Having a notebook with a list of your daily tasks can offer a rewarding visualization of the things you need to get done today. You may be surprised at the triumph that comes with crossing things off your list.
  3. Slow Down & Breathe: Cliché’s and over used Pinterest jingles aside, we’re really only promised today. Although we may not choose to believe it, humans are very delicate creatures with an unsure and unpredictable fate. When I throw around the ‘live for today’ mantra, it’s not to imply shunning responsibility, rationality, or reality. I do, however, hope to stress that a day can be fully utilized by breaking it down into compartmentalized steps to a larger goal.
  4. Battles: Think of the hours or tasks in a day as battles. If you overlook one in anticipation of the next one, you’re inevitably going to half ass it or fall short completely. Focus on the chore at hand and don’t move on until it is completed to the best of your ability. These battles will eventually add up and, sooner or later, the war will be yours for the taking.

Dollar Sign Crucifixion

There’s a large divide between the things we absolutely have to do and the thing’s we’d like to do. It’s not uncommon that the obligations of everyday life can impede ability to delegate time to our wants and desires. Not only that, but living is exhausting and downright difficult. It’s not easy to obtain a way of life that’s both comfortable and completely free. But instead, we feel this responsibility to ‘punch a clock’ and, for the overwhelming majority, work 8-9 hours per day for someone we don’t like doing things we don’t want for a life could easily leave.

It seems to me that we have completely rolled over in regards to our own capabilities and aspirations. People don’t seem concerned about spending their life crucified to a dollar sign, forever a slave to monetary insecurity. I’m not sure exactly where this defective philosophy stems from, but I do know that it’s is a total forfeiture of personal liberty.

Ask yourself this: would you be happier living with more money from a job you hated or less money doing something you don’t actually consider work?  We seem to be stuck in this grand illusion that happiness and money are directly linked to one another. When one steadily rises, so will the other. I may not be a man of extreme monetary wealth, but I personally see much more value in spending a life doing the things you want to and finding a way to monetize it so you may continue doing it.

So maybe we wouldn’t have mansions, six cars, a butler, a gigantic bank account, and an indoor swimming pool that came with making a boatload of cash. That’s okay. Instead, we’ll trade it for pleasure, fulfillment, accomplishment, less stress, and a new appreciation for life that comes with spending the majority of our time doing things we want to. In order to get there, we need to take money off it’s gigantic pedestal while we assess what we actually want to spend our time doing. Money cannot, and should not, be the sole purpose for human existence and creative endeavors.

We must embark on our dream chase with the mindset of freedom and liberation as opposed to monetary gain. We already know that dreams are very difficult to achieve. We must be willing to invest a large amount of our time and patience in order to get there. Sacrifices will have to be made and money will be financed along the way. However, persistence and tenacity always pay off for those who are willing to weather the storm and continue their journey